Hi Reader,

Here's the thing about waking up: you usually don't choose to do it. It just happens. And you try to make sense of what's unfolding.

For me, there was no choice involved. There was a moment when everything felt off—where nothing fit, where I couldn't stay where I was anymore, but had no idea what came next.

I kept trying to fit myself into the puzzle pieces of the life I knew. The things that seemed logical. The paths that looked like they might work. Only they didn't.

Like putting a square peg into a round hole. It looked like there would be enough room, but there never was.

And with each new round hole I tried to squeeze myself into—whether a job, a relationship, or even where I lived—the time until explosion decreased.

I simply did not fit anymore.

So with all the courage I could muster, I let it go. The entire life I had built. The only life I knew. Because try as I might, it no longer belonged to me.

I had to walk into the unknown and figure out what was calling me forward.

But as it was happening, it didn't feel empowering. It felt confusing AF. I had rarely, if ever, met a problem I couldn't solve with intelligence or hard work. And this fit none of those parameters.

The moment I finally admitted I no longer fit into my life, my life could begin again.

The red carpet rolled out. The immediate next step felt clear. Obvious. Like it had been waiting for me all along.

And this didn't just happen once—it happened over and over. Moving to New Orleans for college. Paraguay to work with WWF. Berlin. London. Always a point of knowing. A singular point of no return. And the moment I said "yes," the universe conspired to make the rest of the journey unfold.

There was no going back to sleep. No more pretending I fit where I no longer did.

If you find yourself at a similar crossroads—no longer fitting into the life you built but having no idea what comes next—you're not alone. You are already on the journey, even if you didn't know you were on one.

If you want a guide to support you through:

1:1 Oracle Reading - A 60-minute intuitive reading to clear the fog, reconnect you to your inner truth, and point you toward your next aligned step.

I've done 26 of these in the last month alone—because people are tired of being confused. They want someone to help them see what they can't see on their own. And they leave with actual clarity, not just more things to think about.

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1:1 Coaching & Mentorship - A highly personalized six-or-twelve-month journey designed to help you reconnect with your purpose, embody unshakable confidence, and step into a life of deep clarity and meaning.

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And if you just want a little guidance to know you're not alone, listen to the latest episode of Don't Step on the Bluebells—all about my journey through the messy middle of spiritual awakening.

​https://www.dontsteponthebluebells.com/episodes/052-messy-middle-of-awakening​

Wherever you are on your journey—in the confusion, the clarity, or somewhere in between—I see you.

With love, always,

Amanda

P.S. The Year End Reflection Guide is almost here! Look out for it next week!